Only quite recently I decided to start a change to a few things in my life, things that I knew needed changing. I think sometimes it can be a bit difficult to start a change, we are only human and when certain things in our lifes become routine it can throw us a bit of balance when we do decide to change them.
These could be changes as simple as the way you travel to work in the morning or cutting a few inches of your hair, we can find them hard to get used to. But I’m not talking about changes like that, I’m talking about changes a little bit bigger then that, changes to my mind-set and the way I looked at things and coming to terms with things that I knew wasn’t good for me and knowing that it had to change, and it goes a little something like this.
Do more of what makes you happy.
For a very long time I was finding myself over and over again saying yes to things I didn’t really want to do, from simple things like being invited somewhere and I knew I didn’t particularly want to go, but I would anyway just because I didn’t want to let someone down or I didn’t want people to think I was boring, but the more I was doing this the more I wasn’t happy, I wasn’t doing the things I wanted to do, or I was finding myself doing things that I didn’t like because I didn’t want to be seen as boring and I didn’t want to be the person that didn’t get invited I think I had a fear of being left out. But one day it just seemed to click, I wasn’t doing it anymore I wasn’t going to pretend to be something I wasn’t just on the basis of pleasing others, no way, the thing is to some people I am quite a boring individual, I like coming home after work and having my dinner, having a bath and going to bed, you wont ever catch me awake later then 1am (unless its a special occasion) because I love to sleep and believe me I need at least 7 hours. After doing this I found myself becoming more relaxed more myself because I stopped doing all the things I didn’t want to do and started doing the things that I did, And don’t get me wrong I don’t say no to everything that really would make me boring I do go out with friends and I’m always up for a laugh, but now i just don’t subject myself to everything that gets thrown at me.
Learning who to call friends.
I’m a very open person and sometimes I feel like I’m too open, I let people in easy and make a habit of giving people the benefit of the dought, but that’s just who i am and ive always been that way, and i don’t think ill ever be able to change that about myself, and sometimes it doesn’t always work in my favour because i have come to a few realisations in the past couple of months, Unfortunately you cant trust everyone, some people are only out for their gain only and its unfortunate I had to come to this realisation but it can be true in some cases. It took a while for me to realise this but when I did it actually made my life a whole lot easier knowing exactly where I stand with certain people and that’s okay you cant be everyone’s friend that’s just not the way that life works. But I have a handful of fantastic friends that I could trust with my life and that I am so grateful for.
Don’t be scared to take a leap of faith.
For about the last 3 years I have wanted to start a blog/YouTube channel its just something that I wanted to do since the first time I came across a blog and since I started watching YouTube videos, and for 3 years I put it off, and the Christmas before last my boyfriend bought me a camera one the basis that I promised I would start my channel and of course I told him I would and the truth is I really believed I was going to that I was finally going to do It, even to the point that I told a few close friends that I was going to, I went out after I got my camera and bought myself memory cards and tripods you name it I bought it, and guess what.. still no YouTube channel I chickened out, I decided I couldn’t do it so I didn’t, same with the blog for hours I would sit at home and google different blog sites I made a few blogs just to test it out and I would write one post and then wouldn’t go back to the site for a few months and then pick up where I left off, and it wasn’t because I didn’t want to do it I just felt as if I could never make it public I could never post it on my social media or let friends or work colleges know about my blog because they would probably mock me or talk about me behind my back and at that moment in time I just wasn’t ready, and that’s the thing I wasn’t ready I’ve wanted to do these things for so long now but it wasn’t my time and the only reason I know this is because once I had spent hours and hours on my blog from writing posts to designing my site the way I always wanted it to be I didn’t care about making its a know fact to colleges and friend that I had a blog where I spoke about things from beauty to lifestyle topics and if they mocked me well that’s up to them, it has nothing to do with me because I’m doing something I want to do and I’m proud of myself and I know that people I can truly call my friends will be proud of me to.
That’s why I believe that everything is always about timing, sometimes in life its just not your time but when it is you’ll know about it because all the things that once bothered you so much in the past will suddenly feel so small and so minor that it will make you question why you ever felt that way in the first place, but its completely normal, but I’m so happy that I’m finally at this stage in my life where I’m taking this leap, doing what I’ve wanted to do for so long now and I cant believe I’ve done it, I know I don’t have hundreds or thousands of people reading my blog but for the few that do, you’ll never know how grateful I am, it means so much so thank YOU.
As for my YouTube Chanel I’m working on it!
So there you have it these are a few life lessons I have come to terms with in the last couple of months they might not seem like massively life changing realisations, but for me they are, because ever since ive made these changes and come to these realisations ive been much happier and I just feel better about myself and that for me is amazing. Change can be daunting and we do try to avoid it but changes that benefit you and make you happy that’s a change worth doing, never stop yourself from doing what you want because of what others will think.
Be Happy, Be Yourself, Do what you love.